What I Have Been Through

Sometimes When We Touch

2011-06-20T01:50:00.000+08:00

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Motivational Quotes

2011-04-17T19:46:00.000+08:00

"It's not the size of the dog in the fight but the size of the fight in the dog" - Magic Johnson, NBA Star

"Pain is temporary, pride is forever" - Unknown

"Make the most of yourself, for that is all there is of you." - Ralph Waldo Emerson, Philosopher & Writer

"I hated every minute of training, but I said, don't quit. Suffer now and live the rest of your life a champion." - Muhammad Ali, Boxer

"Try and fail is the manner of losers; try and learn is the way of the strong." - Unknown

"Suffer the pain of discipline or suffer the pain of regret!" - Unknown

"Only the weak attempts to accomplish what he knows he can already achieve." - Stella Juarez Author

"Failure will not overcome me so long as my will to succeed is stronger" - Micheal S. Kirby

"If you are hurt, whether in mind or body, don't nurse your bruises. Get up and light-heartedly, courageously, good temperedly get ready for the next encounter. This is the only way to take life - this is also 'playing' the game!" - Emily Post

"The human body experiences a powerful gravitational pull in the direction of hope" - Norman Cousins Author

"That which does not kill me makes me stronger" - Friedrich Nietzsche, Philosopher, Poet, and Classical Philologist

"Fall down seven times, get up eight" -Chinese proverb

"There is nothing we cannot live down, rise above, and overcome." - Ella Wheeler Wilcox

"Success must be felt within before it can be seen on the outside." - Unknown

"There are plenty of difficult obstacles in your path. Don't allow yourself to become one of them." - Ralph Marston, Author and Publisher of The Daily Motivator

"You have to do what others won't to achieve what others don't." - Unknown

"Make the most of yourself, for that is all there is of you." - Ralph Waldo Emerson, Philosopher & Writer

"Pain is only weakness leaving the body" - Unknown

"Good luck is the result of hard work and preparation" - Unknown

"Strength is the product of struggle" - Unknown

"The race goes not only to the swift nor the contest to the strong, but that's the way to bet your money" - Unknown

"How am I to know what I can achieve if I quit?" -Jason Bishop, About Bodybuilding Reader

"Be patient and tough; some day this pain will be useful to you" - Ovid

"The greatest oak was once a little nut who held its ground" - Unknown

"It's about mind over matter. If you don't mind, it don't matter" -Unknown

"Tough times don't last. Tough people do." - Unknown

"We must train from the inside out. Using our strengths to attack and nullify any weaknesses. It's not about denying a weakness may exist but about denying its right to persist." Vince McConnell

"The mind is the limit. As long as the mind can envision the fact that you can do something. You can do it, as long as you really believe 100 percent." -Arnold Schwarzenegger

"There are only two options regarding commitment, You're either in or your out. There's no such thing as life in between." - Anonymous

Obsessed is just a word the lazy use to describe the dedicated." -Anonymous

"It's never too late to become what you might have been". -George Elliot

"Belief triggers the power to do" -David Schwartz

"Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent." - Marilyn vos Savant, Columnist

"It's about mind over matter. If you don't mind, it don't matter" -Unknown

"It's not the load that breaks you down, it's the way you carry it." - Lena Horne, Singer

"The act of taking the first step is what separates the winners from the losers. - Brian Tracy, Motivational speaker

"Your body hears everything your mind says." - Naomi Judd, Singer/Songwriter

"The man who has no imagination has no wings. " - Muhammad Ali, Boxing Champion, Peace Ambassador

"You miss 100 percent of the shots you never take." -Wayne Gretzky, Professional Hockey Player

"The harder you work, the luckier you get." -Gary Player, Golfer

"Don't let what you can't do interfere with what you can do" - John Wooden, UCLA Basketball Coach

"There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard work, and learning form failure. - Colin Powell, U.S. Secretary of State

"I like thinking big. If you're going to be thinking anything, you might as well think big." - Donald Trump, Entrepreneur

"Life shrinks or expands in proportion to ones courage." - Anais Nin

"Quitters never win and winners never quit " - anonymous

"To give any less than your best is to sacrifice a gift" Steve Prefontaine, runner

"Great souls have wills; feeble ones have only wishes."- Chinese Proverb

"Things do not change. We change." - Henry David Thoreau, Author/Philosopher

" So you want to grow , first you have to learn " Chi Town bb.com moderator

2011-04-05T12:28:00.000+08:00

Chan Phang Sheng

Age : 22

Height :172cm

Weight : 215.6lbs

Arms: 17 inches

Waist : 42 inches

Thigh : 27inches

Best lift

Bench Press : 110lbs dumbbells

Squat: 300lbs barbell

Leg press: 910lbs machine

Deadlift : 300lbs barbell

Biceps Curl : 40lbs dumbbells

(5th April 2011)

2011-03-23T01:16:00.001+08:00

Iron never lies to you, you can walk outside and listen all kind of talk, get told you are god, or total bastard, the iron will always give you the real deal, the iron is great refrence point, the all knowing respecting giver, always there like a weaken in the darkness, i found the iron to be my greatest friend, it never freaks out of me, never runs, friends come and go, but 200pounds is always 200pounds

2011-03-19T16:30:00.001+08:00

"When I go out there onstage, I want to be more than just a blocky guy who waddles onto the posing platform. I want the girls to feel something."

Tom Platz (September 1986)

"Women really do pay attention to a man's glutes. A tight, compact ass is often voted even more desirable than muscular arms and chest. So, if you're lacking, start squatting!"

Ronnie Coleman
8 time Mr. Olympia

2010-08-16T12:19:00.003+08:00

It's my life~

It's now or never~

I ain't gonna live for ever~

I just wanna live while I'm alive~

2010-07-19T16:13:00.002+08:00

Follow the system...

Follow the schedule...

Creates the power of

CONSISTENT!!!

2010-06-30T19:01:00.003+08:00

Every time you are working out so hard and look at yourself at the mirror everyday after workout....

You might not or maybe just hardly see any changes happen...

BUT!!! In your mind you know you are improving and you are dying to see that RESULT you are fighting for!!!

2010-06-18T17:32:00.002+08:00

How do you feel when people praise you? happy? proud? excited? feel like you are a champion?

you can have any of the above but never miss 1 thing!!!

Improve to be even better and stunning!!!
=)

I am Back Once Again~! XD

2010-06-17T19:15:00.007+08:00

It had been almost 7 months I didn't post any article here

Now I'm back finally..

I did not post not because I'm not free

I might just lost my motivation and intention to express and share my life here anymore until today...

Haha...It's weird that how i got back the mood to blog...maybe because I have been consistently reading others blog and this makes me feel like blogging again =)

So, as to update you all out there about my life in these 7 months

Here are them...

Study

I've failed to follow what I had promised to myself ending up rushing and suffering for assignments and exam but yet everything is manageable after all but not with a good outcome =(

I've played too much and put study at the bottom of my list and I'm always wonder why this could happen...maybe I'm really not that interested in study

Social

Surprisingly I was so active and talkative toward my classmates that I did not behave like that on the first semester...I have no idea but this is an absolutely no regret of action =)

You all are so kind and helpful...You all have made my day and not just A Day!!! It's EVERYDAY!!! Thank you ^.^

Gym

Again I failed to reduce my weight and shape out my abs...Too many reasons for this...

Lack of sleep...Not eating good...Not concentrate and focus enough on training and lastly I'm lack of motivation...I will regain this back fully as soon as possible!!! ( I'm gaining back partially currently and it keeps improving!) XD

Myself

I'm very glad to be Chan Phang Sheng because I have almost everything I want consist of car, time, money, freedom, friends, interest and watch ( I've one for myself as a present for motivation to do better in life!)

I've went for Penang trip and Malacca trip so far...I hope more trips will coming ahead very soon!!! =p

World Cup Fever now!!! And I am like no different from any other guys out there following and talking about world cup and having own prediction and opinion on each favorite team!!!

Everyone talks like a PRO and act like a PRO but lose like a NOOB!!! LOL

World Cup 2010 is so unpredictable and it's full of surprise which I couldn't take it!!! Hohoho You know I know man~~~ LOL

GOOD DAY EVERYONE!!!

Mr.KL 2010

2009-11-30T02:11:00.003+08:00

6 months away from Mr.Kuala Lumpur competition

Can I make it?! >.<

No matter can or cannot

I will do my very best till the last day of registration due date!

After 13 1/2 months of training

I can see enough changes and I have hit many small goals and a few big goals

I manage to get people's attention in the gym while I am training

I am a bodybuilder who is big and strong enough at my age in the gym who you will seldom find any ( I am proud of that ) =D

I also appreciate my gym partner who helped me and taught me a lot along the road

Without his courage and push...I would not be so motivated till now

We see each other's body changing every after some time

This keeps us motivated and stay consistently and going intensively! XD

Not only playing "metals and steels" in the gym like a crazy lifting monster! ( Although I love lifting like a monster where everyone seems so impress~~~) =D

I have learned many other things..

I always say that bodybuilding is not an interest, it is a lifestyle where one can stay healthy, energetic, knowledgeable and with passion in their life!

Through bodybuilding...

I have learned to communicate with people by asking for their help and guidance and also by sharing each other's experiences

I have learned a lot in food nutrition and also human body science

I have also learned to be a positive thinking person who always want to improve and accept anything new

I speak more compare to the previous me ( this is the best improvement I have ever made if you knew me back since I was in form 1 secondary school ) =)

I have met a lot of people and made a lot of friends ( no one can live alone, human are meant to be living in a group, not only a small group, a whole human species as one if this is possible ) =D

Conclusion

Bodybuilding is not just an interest where you can see it's result present on your body

But it is a lifestyle which gives an overall present of you and everything about you and even benefit people around you and people you love and can't live without!!!

I LOVE BODYBUILDING

!!!

^_^

Week 56

2009-11-17T09:54:00.005+08:00

Dumbbells flat bench press 200lbs
Incline dumbbells press 170lbs
Decline dumbbells press 130lbs

Dumbell chest flyes 80lbs

Dumbbells row 90lbs

T bar row 115lbs

Pulley row machines 77kg

Shoulder flyes 40lbs

Shoulder dumbbells press 130lbs

EZ bar biceps curl 80lbs

Biceps peacher curl 50lbs

Biceps seated curl 40lbs

Dumbbells concentration 45lbs

Machine calf raise 300lbs

Squat 270lbs

Legs press 810lbs

Deadlift 230lbs

Body weight 202lbs

2009-10-08T19:33:00.001+08:00

Bad luck really can keeps continue

...

Please

...

Enough

...

An off day...

2009-10-03T19:19:00.002+08:00

Slept at 4am yesterday after playing a sucks game(GGness!!!) =)... lost like hell~

Woke up 11 52am today and felt so headache...

Had a cup of Milo with 2 slices of wholemeal bread

Then continue gg-ing with my youngest bro

2 games was played but non are completed, leavers and disconnected !

And then we went to mega mendung to have our lunch at 2pm

After lunch we walked around and we noticed that cybertime has a game competition...

Few games competition are held and of coz include my lovely and honey DOTA!!! XD

We just went in and take a look and went off =) don't plan to eat NOOBSSS!!! XD

And then we go home and rest

That time was around 4pm

After some rest

I planned to go out to eat again!!! HAHA(really like pig)

So we went to OUG, Happy Garden, Sri petaling to search for food!!! So desperate~ hehe

Finally, we made up our mind to eat at Old Town at Sri Petaling

Guess what?! we saw Wong Zhong Han eating there!!! (2 tables beside us)

Many customers noticed him and talk about him and he just enjoying his food and chatting =)

After our food, its already 6 30pm

So the timing is just nice to take a walk at Happy Garden night market!

Because its still early...not all stalls opened, some just starting to open...

We just walk and look around without buying anything, planned to buy foods but there aren't any foods stall open yet =(

So we went back to our car and drive to our old primary school(Yoke Nam) which 3 of us siblings graduated primary there =) good memory...

Drive slowly and look inside the school...some old memories pop out in my mind...nice feelings =)

After that... we also went to the basketball court near there to see people playing basketball...Saw 1 of my friend playing there as well ^_^

After that, its time to go home when we noticed that its already 7pm

Drove back to home and my little brother suggested that we should take a walk in our garden since there had been some time we did not really walk there LOL

So, we went down after parked my car, take a slow walk and chat our old time stories about what we did around there 12 years back =)

After 30 minutes of walk and chat, we felt that's enough relaxing and we go home and to take a bath and start do our own stuffs...

This kind of outing with my own brother is very rare and i felt damn relaxing and nice having this once in a while...It was nice ^_^

I'm glad that I'm off gym today just to give myself some time to rest and relax

Today was wonderful

Some feelings

2009-09-26T20:30:00.003+08:00

You will be crazy and moody once things are out of order...so do I

I have managed time for college and gym

But...once something came out of a sudden might delay or force me to cancel my gym

That's sucks...

I can't eat every 2 to 3 hours because of my college's timetable

Felt really frustrated when things can't go as i wish...and that's not something big, it's just eating and rest...

To be honest...Me myself have to take responsibilities on these...There are plenty of space to improve

Things could be more organised if I could overcome those sudden bad emotions occur somewhere between my day...

I really get disappointed when I didn't did well in the gym...

I felt guilty and moody after getting out of the gym and everything after that will become so annoying and meaningless to me...I have to control this =(

Be still I am happy because people around see changes on me and they praised me

This gave me confident and energy to move on and willing for more and more changes

Thanks to people who did pay attention on my progress....appreciate you all deep from my heart =)

I do feel lonely sometimes....I need someone to understand and share my everything

I need someone to listen to me, anything, just anything I want to tell

Maybe a girl friend? haha...that's might be another new knowledge and challenge =)

No matter how, life still go on~~~

Let's move forward and utilize our life span to the max

That's what human are born to be!!!

^_^

First day back to college

2009-08-03T08:32:00.003+08:00

It had been 3 months of holidays

Finally at 8:15a.m. in the morning I come back to college

Which the weather seems so calm and peace

Entered the main entrance

Go straight to the washroom as what I usually do when I am arrived at my destination

Check out myself at the mirror

Looking at myself in the mirror

......

I'm back with different physique

I'm now 90kg compare to 100kg previous

I'm loaded with much more mass compare to previous

I look better as in healthier and maybe a bit more confident compare to previous

My formal wear fits me better compare to previous as well

Besides looking at the mirror

Changes which can be see without using a mirror are

I'm became more talkative

I have better EQ

I have greater ability to handle awkward person and arrogant person

I am much more motivated in bodybuilding compare to previous

I'm STRONGER!!! =)

A lot stronger than before

.....

Not much things happen in the holidays

Just sports, hanging out and having tea with friends, did some research about bodybuilding and health

.......

And the best part is

Having greater improved and closer relationship with some current and seldom meet friends

Friendship is always a powerful support and motivation to me in doing everything besides family and love

I'm prepared for degree level 2

I have figured out ways to overcome my previous bad study attitudes

I feeling fresh and energetic now and ready to load as much knowledge as I could and I have promised myself to do my best in this whole degree level 2 and keep going till the moment I'm graduate

.......

I hope all these will go smooth and

I believe it will!!!

All the best to myself and to people I love and care

~~~

Week 33

2009-06-26T14:24:00.004+08:00

Recovery week

Wrist injured

Finger injured

Skin injured

legs injured

back injured

Too tough to continue going to gym anymore this moment of time

After eight months

Finally got a week of time to rest and recover although i did went to gym this tuesday which the day i injured my back....

Before this...I could have plenty chances to take a week rest or more if I wan to

It's just because I do not want to break the consistency

I know myself well...once I break....it will be very hard to get back that consistency

Now...I'm done....

My body is badly exhausted and injured which give me no chance to go gym even if I force myself because I can't lift heavy and properly with good form....It causes pain...

After months and months of working out

In the morning at the day after my back injured

Looking at myself in the mirror...

I do see changes and I do feel changes

People around do see changes and this makes me happy and makes me realise that I've done what promised the day I sign up for joining California Fitness...

Put bodybuilding as a daily basis....

When people studying...I'm in the gym fighting

When people working..I'm in the gym fighting

When people shopping...I'm in the gym fighting

When people relaxing at home...I'm in the gym fighting

When people eat whatever they love...I'm eating foods with less taste and plain

When people having snack...I'm having oatmeal or fruits

When people drinking carbonate drinks...I'm drinking plain water, fruit juice or milk

When people busy playing overnight...I'm finding ways to sleep earlier...

That's what makes the different between bodybuilders and normal people

We have larger body size

We look maybe abit more rough

We might always hungry like monsters

We always sleep like pig

We working out like mad dog

Although it seems so different from normal people

But we are just chasing our dream in abit different way

We see result by looking at our body and feel our body

When a goal is set

That's whole life chasing!

WEEK 30

2009-05-28T21:00:00.003+08:00

Bench press 180lbs (whole bar)

Dumbbells flat bench press 180lbs (both hands)

Incline dumbbells press 150lbs (both hands)

Decline dumbbells press 120lbs (both hands)

Dumbell chest flyes 70lbs (both hands)

Dumbbells row 90lbs (one hand)

Pulley row machines 77kg

Shoulder flyes 40lbs (both hands)

Shoulder dumbbells press 120lbs (both hands)

Biceps concentration curl 40lbs (one hand)
Biceps peacher curl 50lbs (both hands)

Biceps seated curl 75lbs (both hands)

21's barbell curl 50lbs (whole bar)

Squat 140lbs

Legs press 259lbs

Legs squat press 630lbs

Sit up 50times

Body weight 202lbs

Currently...wrist injury is the most stubborn injury which takes so long to recover
Even now....still feel the pain
Sleeping early and good is still a big problem to me
Sleeping too early will makes me wake up in the middle of the night which end up even worse sleeping condition...
The high body heat after workout is still there lasting 2 days after every workout
Base on my workout schedule....My body heat problem will last on and on
LOL
I'm a FIRE GOLEM~~
>.<

Done degree level 1...

2009-05-13T11:08:00.004+08:00

Finally I have done my degree year 1 with kinda blur case style
I've been going and back from college without gaining much understanding and knowledge from the modules I've took.

Rushing the assignments given on the last few days and even completed 2 assignments at the last 10 minutes of submission... speechless
Hanging out till late night frequently...
Have an unhealthy eating habits...eating at night...not eating clean....
Addicted to DOTA in the starting of the year......
Spend too much money which is somehow not necessarily....

Things that still make me happy with it are...
I do enjoy alot....
I've freedom much more than a teenager should have
I got what I want and I can have what I want

Left one and the only 1 thing that makes me proud of...
My consistency towards bodybuilding
I never miss a workout with reason that I do not feel like going...
I've gained obvious improvement and some self-confident
I've got a motivated gym partner by my side
I've learnt alot about bodybuilding, nutrition, motivation and health....

In conclusion
In this whole degree level 1...
I'm totally lost focus in my study
I did not manage my time wisely
I'm spoiling my body with my bad eating habit and sleeping habit

I'm alot stronger than previous me before I've started to being serious in bodybuilding
I've understand that friends that always hang around does not really understand each other
I do not feel that friendship does improved alot....but it is fun hanging out and enjoy
I still stick with my belief...
You will never know a person absolutely until when you both faced a situation where life and death matters...

BYE DEGREE YEAR 1 !

Some current wokout pictures...

2009-04-16T01:17:00.011+08:00

Finally got a chance to post some of my workouts pictures here.....

Every bodybuilder hope to have a before and after picture....

I do not really have it ....

So, I just try to put these workout pictures first...

I' ll try to dig back all the old pictures and post it if I can...

^_^

Here are some pictures of my current maximum leg press weight of 630lbs

It's kind of difficult to balance and handle such heavy weights and able to do it slow and steady.....

Here is a biceps curl exercise using an olympic bar

This is a dumbbells biceps curl exercise

Believe me....It's really not that easy to curl all the way up and down for 10 reps

Haha

^_^

Posing biceps with my gym partner, James...

An edited 115lbs dumbbell row exercise...

Quite cool I think ^_^

Thanks James for that...

This is the original picture

Solo biceps posing.....Hehe

Free style posing....James is lean!!!

I will someday!!!

Will update more picture if I have another chance to do so

After 24 weeks of working out in the gym

I satisfy with what I have gain now and do hope for better progression in the near future

..........

I will be back!!!

Week 23

2009-04-11T13:45:00.000+08:00

I find myself started to feel meaningless and bored going to the gym

Always caring pain and muscle sore around my body wherever I go

Do get some questions from people around eg. "How come so long already and you still in the same shape?" , "What bodybuilding could do to your future career?" , " Why you so into bodybuilding?", "How come you spend so much just being into bodybuilding?"

Question after question , until it sometimes makes me confuse that why I'm still standing strong on my beloved interest...

And 1 really really weird and serious problem that makes me laugh and feel speechless...

And that is , I do spend really much on eating instead of smoking, drinking alcohol, drug taking, clubbing, shopping etc...(But I'm not a drinker, smoker, drug consumer, clubber or even shopper....^_^)

I've tried to control....

But it just not really effective in the sense that I have to stop myself .....from eating much???

That's really doesn't make sense for a bodybuilder to eat less!!! Haiz~~

That's also really cruel for me who love foods~~~

So, it just kind of insane task for me to cut down budget on eating....

TOO CRUEL MAN!!!

T.T

Totally out of form =.=''

2009-03-28T01:51:00.002+08:00

Really donno what happen today....
Funny movement....
Weird smashes.....
10 smashes did not cross the net....

Lazy to run....
Tired body.....
Just don look like me at all ....

I really make myself laugh....
what a day!!!

Really GG la
=.=''

I'm too fast for normal people

2009-03-27T01:30:00.002+08:00

20 weeks

From a beginner i almost put myself into intermediate level bodybuilder
My overall strength increased around 30 % to 50%
My legs' strength increased the most.....100% increased!!!
That's cool!!!

I really feel hard and challenging doing all those lifting, pulling and pushing of all sorts of weights
Pain and sore no need to mention anymore in this case, its all became basic processes
I don't really know did i really grow and improve so fast or i just haven't push myself to maximum yet???
This keeps turning in my head and hopefully that i was improving and not haven't put all my efforts into it......

Even myself hardly get the answer.....
How come others or people besides knows???
I wander why a person can judge thing so easily with just some simple observation and prediction....
It's so unfair to the person who giving hard into things they doing and did not get good advise and encouraging....

I'm not here to complain....
But i just dislike such silly prediction and judging
I understand that others might not know everything that a person doing....
But just don't deadly judge the way you think you are right....
That's abit too cruel isn't ???

Give everyone a second chance....
And try see things twice or even more if you could...
Cause you might find it so different everytime you refer back...
Somehow you can really get indepth understanding on it

Don't so sure things by first look or 1st touch.....
Try more!!!
^_^

20 weeks after joining California Fitness

2009-03-23T14:15:00.004+08:00

Bench press 180lbs (whole bar)

Dumbbells flat bench press 150lbs (both hands)

Incline dumbbells press 130lbs (both hands)

Decline dumbbells press 120lbs (both hands)

Dumbell chest flyes 60lbs (both hands)

Dumbbells row 85lbs (one hand)

Pulley row machines 77kg

Shoulder flyes 40lbs (both hands)

Shoulder dumbbells press 100lbs (both hands)

Biceps concentration curl 30lbs (one hand)

Biceps seated curl 75lbs (both hands)

21's barbell curl 50lbs (whole bar)

Squat 140lbs

Legs press 259lbs

Legs squat press 600lbs

Sit up 50times

Chin up haven acheive any yet!!!

( Din't go for a try also, too DIFFICULT FOR MY BODY WEIGHT!!!)

Current body weight

204lbs

Latest update of my workout rountine's weight achieved and body weight

Hope to see better and stunning result from efforts I have put in

^_^

Human body is unique and unreplacable

2009-03-17T01:25:00.002+08:00

Every time you hurt you body, it will recover and becomes better in handling injuries next time

Every time you put stress on your muscle and make it goes into micro tear, it will grow back and grow bigger and stronger to use to the stress given next time

Every time you stretch your body harder until you feel pain, it will slowly increase its flexibility to use to such range of motion next time

Every time you got sick, it will recover and has better antibody to fight the sickness next time

Day after day, month after month and year after year

Time will show how human body can face any kind of obstacles

Human body are not that weak and powerless

Development of a human body has no limit and boundary

It's all about how ones willing to development it and use its body

HUMAN IS UNIQUE

HUMAN BODY IS UNLIMITED AND UNREPLACABLE

A piece of cake la !!! Easy Job !!!

2009-03-10T21:28:00.004+08:00

Lifting weights like peanuts

Going to gym like going to bed

Injured like shaking hands

Pain like bathing

Exhausted like laughing

Stress like watching comedy

That's really easy and fun huh?

Haha

2009-03-07T03:26:00.008+08:00

Just a short story i wanna share

One day

A square shape ball (please be patient and let me finish ^_^)

He saw other balls are playing around happily

But he wonder why all balls are in round shape

Except he is in square shape

He starts to think....

Why is everyone just don't seems like him

He starts to feel that others are weird and couldn't find out the answer no matter how he think

An one fine day

All balls are called up for a quality test

So, the square ball attend as well

Now he realise....

All balls can row smoothly and bounds nicely

Except him...

He can't row , he can't bounds

And he finally being ban from the quality test because he did not reach the quality requirements

From this short story i share with...

I understand something..

When ones does not understand why he or she so different from others

It is because he or she do not know why such differences exist

And he or she do not know why should have such differences exist

Ones does not know why such differences apply on he or she compare to others

With slightly misinterpretation...

Ones could have think that others are weird

But do not know why

The square ball feel others' shape are weird before he realise that functions of a ball is to be able to row and bounds

Ones feels others behave or acting weird before he realise that actually human suit environment and not environment suit human

Human needs to change and improves to stay alive and peace or even be outstanding among others

But....You have to know your speciality is good or bad, acceptable or unacceptable, logic or not logic

That's what we have to remind ourselves to stay cystal clear and avoid lost along our life path

Stop for while and think back able us to move forward with full force again

^_^

2009-03-01T03:07:00.002+08:00

Being together and so buddy like no other

Talking without barriers and misunderstanding

Laugh out loud with no worries

Knowing each other without even speaking out

Seems it's all nice and wonderful

It's all so surface

Problems of each other never even being notice

Life of each other never even asked

Do not know about dreams of each other

Secrets are all around

Something that both may know but never spoken out

Interests and hobbies are so different but yet never care to understand and experience

Just one step away to be have rock hard relationship

But the distance of the step was thousand miles away

So near yet so far....

2009-02-26T01:21:00.005+08:00

Positive thinking is an ENERGY

Open yourself to others before you aspect others to open themselves to you

Appreciate to things you got, not feel sad because you can't get what you want

Always be better than yesterday

Feel happy when sad instead of feel sad when sad.....why not be happy?

Feel secure because you are under protection, not feel worry that others might hurt you anytime

Think of things you have, not hoping for things you want

Positive thinking is an energy....It's INFINITY

2009-02-17T21:06:00.002+08:00

10 Ways How To Gain Energy When You Are Tired

1. Be more positive

2. Keep your life balanced

3. Drink water

4. Wash your face with cold water

5. Sports

6. Buy some fresh flowers and put them in an area where you spend most time

7. Be yourself

8. Be around good people

9. Breathe deeply

10. Smile

I found that these are very interesting and somehow quite effective!!!

^_^

2009-02-10T02:06:00.004+08:00

I think I have reached my limit

15 weeks non stop

3 to 4 days every week

2 to 3 hours a day

My body went into critical condition

I'm really TIRED

I experienced extraordinary changes in my body

I have tried exhausted

I have tried painfulness

I have tried the feeling of body burning

I have tried stress mentally and physically

I did think of

Giving up...

Explode...

Forget it for the rest of the life

BUT AT THE END

I would NEVER DO SO

Asian's body never compete with Europeans and Africans

But Asian's spirit will never be beaten down

ASIAN's SPIRIT FIGHTS EVERYTHING COMES ALONG THE ROAD

!!!

Mariah Carey - HERO

2009-02-03T14:25:00.002+08:00

There's a hero if you look inside your heart.

You don't have to be afraid of what you are.

There's an answer if you reach into your soul

and the sorrow that you know will melt away.

And then a hero comes along

with the strength to carry on

and you cast your fears aside

and you know you can survive.

So, when you feel like hope is gone

look inside you and be strong

and you'll finally see the truth

that a hero lies in you.

It's a long road when you face the world alone.

No one reaches out a hand for you to hold.

You can find love if you search within yourself

and the emptiness you felt will disappear.

And then a hero comes along

with the strength to carry on

and you cast your fears aside

and you know you can survive.

So, when you feel like hope is gone

look inside you and be strong

and you'll finally see the truth

that a hero lies in you.

Lord knows dreams are hard to follow,

But don't let anyone tear them away.

Hold on, there will be tommorow.

In time you'll find the way.

And then a hero comes along

with the strength to carry on

and you cast your fears aside

and you know you can survive.

So, when you feel like hope is gone

look inside you and be strong

and you'll finally see the truth

that a hero lies in you.

That a hero lies in you,

that a hero lies in you.

2009-02-03T14:15:00.000+08:00

爱情这东西没道理的有人很抢手有人没资格
路是人走的我害怕什么大不了别爱了
她像个天仙她太美了我那么平凡我开不了口
心里面晓得追她的结果幸运的不是我

唉

我没那种命呀她没道理爱上我英雄和美人呐是一国的
只怪爱人太少了对手太好了劝自己别傻了
以前甭提了以后非加油不可
我没那种命呀轮也不会轮到我爱情老是缺货我争什么
时间越来越少了越来越老了我剩下一个梦
她走过来说其实我错了她爱我

她像个天仙她太美了我那么平凡我开不了口
心里面晓得追她的结果幸运的不是我

唉

我没那种命呀她没道理爱上我英雄和美人呐是一国的
只怪爱人太少了对手太好了劝自己别傻了
以前甭提了以后非加油不可
我没那种命呀轮也不会轮到我爱情老是缺货我争什么
时间越来越少了越来越老了我剩下一个梦
她走过来说其实我错了

唉
我没那种命呀轮也不会轮到我爱情老是缺货我争什么
时间越来越少了越来越老了我剩下一个梦
她走过来说（其实你错了我爱你）

2009-02-03T13:18:00.003+08:00

走过多少路口听过多少叹息

我认真着你的不知所措

这种迷茫心情我想谁都会有

幸运的是能分担你的愁

能不能靠近一点能不能再近一点

满足我心中小小的虚荣

其实你并不知道在我心中你最美

就像风雨过后天边的那道

彩虹

如果明天的路你不知该往哪儿走

就留在我身边做我老婆好不好

我不够宽阔的臂膀也会是你的

温暖怀抱

如果你疲倦了外面的风风雨雨

就留在我身边做我老婆好不好

我一定会承受你偶尔的小脾气

或许我还能给你一点意外

一份欢笑一个简单安心的小窝

陪你日出陪你日落到老

能不能靠近一点能不能再近一点

满足我心中小小的虚荣

其实你并不知道在我心中你最美

就像风雨过后天边的那道

彩虹

如果明天的路你不知该往哪儿走

就留在我身边做我老婆好不好

我不够宽阔的臂膀也会是你的

温暖怀抱如果你疲倦了外面的风风雨雨

就留在我身边做我老婆好不好

我一定会承受你偶尔的小脾气

或许我还能给你一点意外

一份欢笑一个简单安心的小窝

陪你日出陪你日落到老
如果明天的路你不知该往哪儿走

就留在我身边做我老婆好不好

我不够宽阔的臂膀也会是你的

温暖怀抱

如果你疲倦了外面的风风雨雨

就留在我身边做我老婆好不好

我一定会承受你偶尔的小脾气

或许我还能给你一点意外

一份欢笑一个简单安心的小窝

陪你日出陪你日落到老

如果哪天你玩累了倦了

回到我身边来我会陪着你一辈子

Curent Achievement

2009-02-02T12:11:00.005+08:00

14 weeks passed

...........

Numerous of sweat

Annoying pain and soreness which hard to describe by words

Used a lot of time

Changed food habit

Changed attitude

Gained more spirituality

Gained more knowledge

What I have achieved

...............

250lbs smith machines bench press

140lbs free weight bench press

470lbs squat leg press

35lbs dumbbell curl

85lbs 1 arm dumbbell row

150lbs seated pulley row

30 times push up

5 times chin up

Body weight, 205lbs

Body fats, 29%

16.5 inches biceps

These are the result I got after 14 weeks of my time and efforts

.......

I will keep this going

I will always remember

Bodybuilding is a lifestyle

Not just an interest

.....

2009-01-12T22:08:00.003+08:00

^_^

The road to success is not straight

There is a curve called Failure

A loop called Confusion

Speed bumps called Friends

Red lights called enemies

Caution lights called Family

And flats called Jobs

But, if you have a Spare called Determination

An engine called Perseverance

Insurance called Faith

A driver called Jesus

You will make it to a place called

SUCCESS

By an author in bodybuilding.com

2009-01-06T13:26:00.005+08:00

Year 2009

A Brand New Year with Brand New Aims

Since everyone is so ego to list down all their dreams, hope, targets and aims to accomplish in YEAR 2009

So I wouldn't wanna be outdated!!!

I'm also gonna list down my aims

^_^

Erm.....

I wanna have a Lamborghini

I wanna have a huge mansion

I wanna have billions of money

I wanna have a beautiful wife

I wanan have a lot of servants

WAIT!!!

Think TOO MUCH ya?!!!

Haha

Lets go for something more realistic...

Hmmm...

I hope that I could pass all my exam or even score good result and proceed to degree level 2 smoothly

I hope that I could have a healthier body

I hope that I could have a peaceful home

I hope that everyone I meet is happier than before

Lastly, I hope that good news always come to me!!!

Hehe

^_^

Now...

Its my aims on my beloved interest...

Bodybuilding!!!

Haha =)

300lbs smith machines bench press

180lbs free weight bench press

600lbs squat leg press

40lbs dumbbell curl

80lbs 1 arm dumbbell row

200lbs seated pulley row

50 times push up

20 times chin up

Slim down body weight to 85kg

Decrease body fats to 15%

17inches biceps

and so on......

I think these already tones of aims to accomplish in a year

I hope that I can accomplish it

I will feel super duper proud if i manage to!!!

And

I hope all my friends and readers could accomplish all your aims and targets TOO!!!

^_^

Do only things that you have to do is more than enough

2008-12-19T22:18:00.006+08:00

There are too many things to take into consideration

There are too many feelings to take care

There are too many responsibilities to put on the shoulders

Doubts...

Secrets...

Feelings...

Responsibilities...

Security...

Give your time to things that you need and things that need you...

Give your caring to things that you love and things that love you...

Share your feelings to things that you understand and things that understand you...

Responsible to promises you have made and to things that require it...

Stay and hold with things that you wanna be together and things that wanna be together with you...

Life is extremely short if you realise its functions and directions

Life is short when you have dreams

Life is even shorter when you found your loved one

Utilise the benefits of your life to the max

Because its once and only for everyone

~~~

2008-12-15T23:50:00.012+08:00

JAY CUTLER

Jay Cutler had maximized the human abilities and muscle mass!!!

He makes human feel proud!!!

Especially guys!!!

^_^

Enjoy doing the same things....

2008-12-13T12:49:00.004+08:00

Sometimes is fun and enjoying when doing the same things in our daily routine
Things that never change create boredomness
But in the other way around, its also give us the feelings of secure and stability

Task might be fixed
Things might be standard
People might be the same
Place might be the same
Time might be limited

But the way of doing it could be change
Attitude towards could be change
Feelings could be different everytime

After gone through all the hard time....
Tasks, missions, targets and objectives will be accomplished and done....
Everything will be worthy....." return on investment' could be see ^^

This process will go on and on , again and again in our life till the end of breath
So take the challenge!!! ^_^

Bodybuilding

2008-11-23T19:46:00.003+08:00

Stepping into the gym is like entering another world of mine
Looking at people who has the same interest, target and mission gain me more motivation

When feel like giving up, just look at the person beside you doing so hard will make you go on with your workout ^^

Share opinions, experiences, tough situations with people who gone through or just started the journey is a meaningful step in order to get a better life =)

See, understand, experience and get result its all about doing gym!!! =p
Observing, learning, interpreting, practical experimenting and review result is what bodybuilding do ^.^

Pain, stress, tiredness and time are the inputs
Strength, muscle mass, health and and body shape is the outputs
That's what you give and what you gain in bodybuilding
Haha =p

Give my very best to what I love the most
Gambateh!!!

2008-11-18T21:57:00.005+08:00

20 ways for you to stay MOTIVATED!

Let's face it, staying motivated is not the easiest thing to do. That's why a lot of bodybuilders quit lifting, because they've lost their motivation. I have almost lost all of mine before, and almost stopped lifting, but I regained it and now I'm coming along just fine for my first year. I have motivation in everything I do, and a lot of reasons to stay motivated. In this article, I'm going to outline 20 ways for you to stay motivated. With all of that in mind, here they are.

1. Imagine Competing Against Your Rival! Imagine you are neck and neck with a rival of yours as far as muscle mass goes. He's slightly ahead of you, and you're almost about to give up. Then, you want to get bigger than him so bad, you use that as your motivation. Imagine he's always bigger, so you will never give up.

2. Visualize The Weight As Something You Hate! Use a person that you really hate as an example. Picture them as a barbell, dumbbell, etc. You want to get so strong, you want to punch they're lights out. The more mass you have, the harder you hit them. Picture it like that.

3. Reward Yourself For A Job Well Done. If you do really well and have an excellent workout, treat yourself to new lifting equipment. Treat yourself for doing well in the gym. You're so motivated to try those new pairs of gloves on, or to try out that new tank top.

4. Treat Yourself To A New Food. Treat yourself to a different food than your normal diet. No, I don't mean a candy bar or a soda, I mean if you have a steak, try chicken breasts with close to the same nutritional value.

5. Buy Yourself A New Supplement. Buy yourself a new supplement. If you only take Whey Protein, try a meal replacement, or creatine. You get the picture. Just try a new supplement that you've wanted to try.

6. Watch A Motivating Movie. Watch a movie like Rocky. It is a great way for motivation. He had to overcome a lot of obstacles in order to be as great as he was. He didn't like training, but he never quit.

7. Set Small Goals. Set a goal for yourself of something you want to accomplish. Make sure it's a reasonable goal though. Not something like "I want to gain 15 pounds in 3 days." Something like "Increase my lifts in one exercise per body part." If you want the goal bad enough, you will stay motivated.

8. Listen To Your Favorite Music! Listen to your favorite music while lifting. Nothing can motivate you better than listening to your favorite tunes. Music has power to get your mind away from the fact that you're training intense.

9. Take A Recovery Week. Take a recovery week every 8 weeks. I mean no cardio, no lifting, nothing but your diet. A mental recovery week is important to maintain your level of concentration and wanting to lift harder.

10. Train For Your Health! Train for your health. If you want to stay healthy enough, you will continue to train and eat healthy. There is not other sport I know of that eats healthier than bodybuilding.

11. Lift Because Someone Said You Can't Do It. Lift because someone said you can't do it. Ever heard somebody say that you can't get big and you'll always be a small fry? Use that to want to become big and show that guy next time that you can get big and not stay small forever.

12. Do It Out Of Free Will! Do it out of your own free will. If you want to get big bad enough, you will have enough will inside of you to get big. If you believe that you can do it, you will do it.

13. Get A Training Partner. Get a training partner. Nothing better than having a buddy help you reach your goals with the help of his motivation. I love the sound of hearing a training partner saying you can do it.

14. Take Advice From People. Take advice from people. I get loads of bodybuilding information each day. It motivates me to keep going knowing that I have so much information. If I stopped, I wasted a lot of my life with useless information.

15. Try To Impress People! Try to impress people. It doesn't matter who, your mom, dad, grandparents, a girl you like, etc. If you want to impress people bad enough, you will keep going with your bodybuilding lifestyle.

16. Use Pictures To Motivate! Use pictures to motivate you. Compare different before and after pictures. You keep getting bigger than the previous picture. You want it so bad, every time you take a picture, you're getting bigger. Check out Bodybuilding.com's huge picture gallery, click here!

17. Help Others Out! Help others out. When people come up to me and ask for advice, that keeps me motivated because I know others look up to me. It is a great feeling to know there are people who admire you.

18. Change Your Workout Routine. Change your routine. I do after 8 weeks, then a recovery week. It will get boring doing the same routine day after day, week after week. Changing it up will keep you motivated instead of just doing the same old routine and just lifting to get it done.

19. Compare Yourself Against Other Bodybuilders. Compare yourself with other bodybuilders. Always try to find someone that's bigger than you, and say I want to be just like him. Once you're bigger than him, try to find someone else to compare with.

20. Do It For FUN! Do it for fun. I'm not saying just do it and having fun out there and not having intensity and just doing it laughing the whole way. I mean to enjoy what you do. Have fun lifting, and dieting. I used to hate it and just do it to get it over with, now I love every bit of it. In this article, I've outlines 20 ways to stay motivated. Never stop looking for ways of motivation. All that will make you do is want to quit because you've lost yours. There are many other ways of motivation than the ones listed here, so never stop looking for ways. I hope you guys enjoyed this article. Stay motivated!

ps: writen by a writer from bodybuilding.com

Appreciate this article ^.^

Gym day...

2008-11-08T21:13:00.003+08:00

After a 8 hours of sleep yesteday night
I woke up at 9 30am in the morning
Started play game from 10 00am to 11 30 noon as an early entertainment ^^

Then...
The most important thing came to my mind after playing game....
Guess what?!!!
FOODSSSS of coz!!!
Have my 'brunch' which is a plate of white rice with fish and curry chicken
(Protein contained man!!!) =)
Then plus a big cup of hot milk ^^

Okay!!!
Now im full of energy....
Rest awhile.....around 1 hour and 30 min....
Start packing up my stuffs and get ready to go gym...

Finally....
Im reached California Fitness Centre....
When i stepped in .....its 2pm
Put my stuffs into the locker and get ready to start my GYM DAY!!! >.<

First started with my warm up and stretching....
Then go for the machines....
Machine after machine.....
Set after set.....
Then i finally felt tired and stop for while to take a short rest
Look up at the clock hanging on the wall......its 3 30pm

When the time i entered the gym...it was just small number of people, around 15 maybe...
Now it was so crowded!!! More than 40 people.....
After a 10 minutes of resting and dreaming....
I continue my workout for another 30 mins

In this 30 mins....
I have done 3 machines....and also observing people around =p
I have seen few types of people inside the gym....
People who already set their goal, people who just come in the gym irregularly, people who come to walk around and watch around and people who come with friends to have fun....

When you see those who already have a goal set....
Don't even go near and talk to them ...lol^^
Joking nia =) .... it just they look so so so concentrate with no distractions
1 word....PRO!!!

Another type, those who come irregularly....
This type of people come once in a blue moon, they came because they think they should have responsible to their promises to go gym....lol
This type......no comment^^

Go on
Those who came to walk around and watching around are those i really don't understand why they come for....swt =.=''
They basically just do 3 or 4 machines a day
You know how they do?!!!
3 set per machine......between each set...a 15 mins rest!!! lol
They just sit on the machine and rest, leaving those who really wanna use the machine to wait whole day long =.=''

The last type
They will come by 2 or 3 person in a group....
Then they will start make the fool of every machines and gym stuffs....
Challenging each other by doing 1 or 2 reps.......end up nothing they will gain
Yes its fun...but what is that?!!! haha speechless

Okay...back to me
After the 30 mins workout, i went to sauna and bath then go back
Reached home at 5 20pm

This is what basically throughout my gym day.....
I do learned something......
The nonstop and not giving up spirit from those pro bodybuilders....
By seeing them, i have more motivations throughout my gym day....
RESPECT!!! ^.^

So far......I have done this....

2008-11-08T00:35:00.002+08:00

18days......
kinda hardcore for being a beginner in a gym....
4 days a week and 2 hours minimum of workout each day....
I do miss a day...which i really cant stand the pain and the tiredness

From a bodyweight of 97kg down to 94kg...
From cant even run on a treadmill for 2 mins to manage to run for 6 mins
Before i get started, i eat as usual.....always follows my mood and also others
Now....i dont even go out to have an extra meal with friends.....even drinks, i will choose those without sugar...

Laziness....
I donno how was it to others
But for me, this is the biggest challenge....
Every moment when i wan to stop myself from going out of my door, getting into my car and driving to the gym location
I will tell myself....What you have promised to yourself?
Its enough of self cheating for so many years...
Thats what you have interest in!!! Do not let this silly little laziness bring you down!!!

At the end....
I also manage to make myself to the gym...
Every moment when i feel that i cant do even 1 more rep.....
I tell myself....
1 rep, so what? make it 2!!!
I'm always creating motivations for myself...
When i'm tired and feel like getting off the gym....
I tell myself....
Its that all? Enough? you serious? With this kind of performance, you satisfy?
Then i manage to continue around 30 mins longer...

So far.....I have done this......

What I love is not what u want and expected

2008-11-01T03:22:00.005+08:00

Sorry...
I know you don't like me doing things that don't have futurity
But...that's what I only love and have interest on...
I know it does not seem to be benefiting me in the future and maybe now as well
I know that clearly...

Doing things that I do not have interest on is the worst thing happening to me
I do not have the mood and do not have the heart to put in efforts
Its making me confused and frustrated...
Pointless...
No direction...
Regret...
Loses my goal...

Sorry...
Study hard to get a certificate as a pass to get a good job in the future is not the way I want
Everyone wants to be special, include me...
Following someone Else's footsteps is not my style and I hate it
If that's call stubbornness and not understanding...
Then I have to admit...I am...

All time listening to such sentence, " Life is only once, why don't you do your best and get the best things in your life?"
Ya I do agree with this...
But I can tell you, getting the best things ever are never never could compete with getting things you love and dream!
If the best thing is not what you want, thing you love is the one you dying to get!

I always tell myself
Money is nothing...
Materials is nothing...
Pain is also not a thing to scare of...
Suffer is just a bit tough in life...
Looking down by others is just a small barrier in life...
But your DREAM!
YOUR DREAM IS EVERYTHING!

So...Sorry...
I will keep on with what I'm doing now
By doing this, I could feel that I am chasing towards my dream step by step...
I could find my direction...
I am not confuse....
I have no regret...
I see my goal crystal clear!

THAT'S WHAT I WANT AND HOW I ENJOY!

Types of friend

2008-09-18T15:08:00.003+08:00

What we usually know are, there are good friends and bad friends
But, there are more types of friend @.@

We can see that there are friends which called Hi-Bye friends
Hi-Bye friends are those we knew them but we just say hi when we meet them and say bye when we going off...

There are also entertainment friends
Those friends are only meet when we have some entertainment activities
The conversations are all covered with fun, entertaining and joyful topics
Nothing besides that.....

Move on, we can also spot there are some advantages taking friends
They might find you once in a while, but only when you have something that benefits them
You will find that a lot of this kind of friends surrounding you when you have something really good and if you wanna see it more obvious......then take a look at those really rich fellas.....

Continue, we also manage to see some friends which called ' two headed friends' haha
In front of you, they will agree with everything you say,everything you do and you will find you yourself are so match with them and you will love to share your secrets with them....
At the back, You are just a nonsense and dumb person who willing to share every secret with them.....at the end.....you know nothing about them but they know everything about you @.@

There are also one type of friends who will never open their heart towards your sincerity.....
No matter how long or how hard you are trying to have closer relationship with them.....
You will definitely feel there is still a wall between both of you....
2 reasons why this happened.....either they been cheated badly before knowing you or they are those people who never believe in a person more than 70%.....

This type of friends are very defensive, there know nothing in the world is 100% , include friendship...........
I agree with it but i give more than 70% because i hope they are still true friends around for me to discover =)

I'm back

2008-09-09T16:02:00.004+08:00

It have been quite some time I dint blog
I need to refresh my mind and refer back things that I have talked and mentioned
That's how to stop a person from getting lost while keep doing the same things again and again
Now I'm back with clear mind and more energy!

There are things happened during the time i stopped blogging
There are memorable, ordinary, stunning, unexpected, Depressing and joyful moments.
Nothing special to mention, But i just feel like learning a lot of things which I never ever will learn in college....

Now I know.....even a minor little thingy will give a totally different output
1 word, 1 eye contact, 1 body movement, 1 mistake, 1 effort and 1 self-control will gives extremely different output in same situation
Even this apply in exercising.....
I have tried to do one more rep (force rep) when I'm really reached my limit
Its hurt....

Still....I have a lot of questions.....
Maybe i will get the answer sooner or later
Or maybe the answer already exist in such cruel way which I don hope it is

I believe
We start learning from the day we are born to the day we are dead
Keep learning...
So never judge a thing so sure until you cant change your thinking
Never do things too extreme and too straight forward
There are always Grey areas which things can change
Good Luck Guys!

Why so serious?

2008-08-09T22:11:00.002+08:00

Why so serious?
Haha.....
I think I have such title is because of the dark knight......
Even though I haven watch the dark knight...( hope to watch it haha)

I always wanna do things nicer......
Hope to have confirmation earlier.......
Hope to settle things before due date.....
Hope to have commitment from others.....

Why am i so serious?
The slogan from the 'joker' woke me up......
Thinking things from own point of view is not right....
Never ask for perfection...............
Establish your on responsibility is the way...........
Do not care too much of uncontrolled incidents......
Let things run by itself.....

This might show selfishness......
But not really......
Being special no matter in what way will end up isolated.....
Same species will never come out special type.....
Being special is not equivalent to excellent nor perfect.....

There is a line which we cant cross......
Once cross.....
You might found others hard to understand.....
There will be someone who can understand.....not many......

Showing all out is a dangerous move......
Restriction somehow appeal as normal.....
Special doesn't means better.....
Nitez....

Goodbye Grandma.......

2008-08-06T10:23:00.002+08:00

Early morning……

When everyone was chatting happily……

My mom’s handphone rang……

Is a person who didn’t call my mom for years……

That person was her brother…….

At that moment…….

A very weird feeling rush through every nerve in my body……

Tells that something is not going right…..

Then my mom answers the call and asks: yes? What’s wrong?

Then she said: Oh…oh….when? Ok……

Very quickly after she hang up her phone……

She 1^st told my dad: My mother had passed away this morning…….

I was observing and listening all the while since before she answers the call……

I was not so sad…….

Because I already accepted the fact……..

Everyone must go through born, old, sick and die…..

But that feeling is sad…..I can’t deny……

Maybe that’s what people say…….

No matter how…..once a person who is your relative dead or hurt……

You will definitely feel the pain and sad……..

It depends on how obvious or how strong it is……

I never experience this before……

My grandpa passed away since before I born so I can’t feel the sadness…..

But now I’m 19 years old…..

I’m mature enough to understand what is sad………..

Really pain……..truly pain…….I don’t know how to explain the pain……

Really makes me uncomfortable…….

This feeling getting even stronger when I rush back to Ipoh just after I rush back home from my college and look at my grandma dead body…….

I don’t know how to react……

Because that time I and my dad was the last arriver who arrive to our hometown…….

All the way from our car to the house…….

Everyone is looking at us…….

I don’t know how to describe the expressions on their face……

I only know that……..those are sadness

I’m the eldest grandson among all…….

Everyone is focus on me……

Every action…..every expression……..even every word I say is so important……

After me and my dad went through the whole process……………

Not even a sound can be heard…..even the breathing sound is controlled…..silent…….

We had done the funeral by our Chinese traditional style…….

I was in charge to burn the “hell money” together with my 2 brothers for around 2 hours……

When someone has to ‘shiong hiong’…..we have to step aside and watch…..

I can never describe that phenomenon……….

My grandpa (my mom’s dad) did not sleep since after my grandma passed away……

Same goes to his 3^rd son who loves her mom so much……..

Now I’m writing this article at 1: 41am, 05/08/08……..

Just 2 ½ hour after the ceremony end……

Currently…….

Me, my mom, and my mom’s 2 brothers…….

For sure….my grandpa as well…….

We all can’t go to bed……

My grandpa now is still talking to my mom…..

Telling her what happen when my grandma dies……

What she told and how she pass away……

I chosen this moment to drop down this article because…..

I think this is a memorable and priceless moment in my life……

There are so many feelings turning around in my nerves……..

I can’t define those feelings…….But I can guess those are different types of sadness…..

Okay…..

I don’t think I can go to bed tonight…..

But I hope tomorrow morning me and all my relatives could accompany my grandma to finish her journey happily and peace……

I wanna tell u, grandma!!!! I have never visit you for 5 years……………

When I was thinking of visiting you next year…….you passed away……..

I can’t even speak a word to you or listen to you to tell me a word…….

I’m so sorry……..I’m really regretted……..

What can I do now is looking at your cold face and closed eyes……..

I’m the eldest among all children there……

I can’t cry out…..even I wanna cry……but no tears coming out……

I feel very pain……really pain……..

Its hurt......

2008-08-03T15:36:00.002+08:00

Its hurt..........
when someone is not believing in you....
when someone is misunderstanding you.....
when someone is cheating you.....
when someone is lying to you when u know it.....
when someone you love is leaving.........
when someone you respect is not the one you thought it is......
when someone you believe the most is blaming on you.......

Its hurt....
Every single one of this situation happen is truly hurt........

The feeling was..........
You cant breath..........
Your heart is pain......
You feel powerless....
You feel hopeless......
You feel meaningless.....
You were dying to hope for a hand which can pull you up.....
You hope to have someone who hug you and say : don worry.....
Thousands of sharp blades are cutting through every part of your body.........
The heart is the most........

Mentally hurt are far more suffering then physical hurt.........
I rather you kill me than torturing me like this............
Not pain......but helpless..........

Just be the ONE.......

2008-08-03T00:41:00.003+08:00

Now.......
peace..........
stable.........
real...........
steady.........

Nothing much to think of............
Nothing much to mad of............
Nothing much to worry of............
Nothing much to plan...........

It goes like this.......
So let it be..............
Be the one who never lost its vision.......
Be the one who never lost its temper........
Be the one who never complain..........
Be the one who never blame........
Be the one who never ask for more..........
Be the one who never think of anything which its deserve.........

Go on with every day and night...............
Enjoy what it has..................
Doesn't need to force.......
Doesn't need to care beyond your capability........

JUST BE THE ONE RIGHT NOW...........
nitez........

Real.......

2008-07-29T19:39:00.003+08:00

Thought that giving out alot............
Thought that putting alot of efforts......
Thought that getting back what is deserve.....
Thought that letting off long ago......
Thought that never remember it anymore......
Thought that already forgive it..........

But....
But actually not giving out as much as its expectation......
But doesnt really putting alot of efforts.....
But doesnt really getting back reasonable return.....
But actually just forget for a period of time......
But it will come into mind once in awhile.........
But the strong feelings are still there..........

What we thought are actually what we hope to......
What will truly happen is when we never even think about it........
Real come when no one realise......
Real come when theres no expectation..........
Real will only come when theres no preparation......
nitez.....

I like this feeling

2008-07-27T22:58:00.005+08:00

Do my things in front of my laptop.......
Listening to songs........
Chatting with friends........
Surfing the net.........
Playing games..........
Writing my blog.......
Looking for nice pictures on the net...........

Away from my laptop.......
I go swim and sauna.........
I came back and enjoy bathing..........
Lying on the bed and watch TV......
After watching TV..........
I listen to radio in the living room..........

I love falling to sleep while listening to songs.......
I can sleep very well...........
After waking up from nap............
I will sit on my bed and dreaming around haha.....
( i love to dream ) ^^

After getting off my bed........
I went to my laptop and start during some college assignments......
( just awhile^^)
Play game againzzzz..........

After gaming.....
I go for some silent stuffs.........
Reading people's blog..........
Enter to a forum and chat with those listeners and DJ there......
In between......i went to kitchen and make a cup of hot neslo.........( I love the taste )
Continue with my stuffs.....

Before going off to bed........
Usually i will sign in my friendster account to check the daily Horoscope.......
I don really believe in horoscope......
But sometimes those encouragements will give me some motivations to pass my day ^^

Thats what i do in my daily life......
Its relaxing.............
That what i want.......
Not money....not reputation......not fame......not authority......not praising.......
Just.............peace..............
nitez......

Money.....

2008-07-25T21:24:00.004+08:00

What so powerful about money.......
I really don understand.......

Money can do a lot of things but not everything.............
Without money.....we can do nothing............(lame)
Thats what most people thought................

But what so big deal.......
With money that enough for our living and some extra for entertainment is more than enough.....
Why Squeezing your brain to look for more.........
whats the point...........

The main explanation is to give their next generation a better life........
Erm......i don really get that actually...............
How is a better life means..........
Extra pocket money to spend..........
Get what others don have...........
Work less compare to others.............
Or have better life satisfaction than others......

Haha.......
If all the above listed are into purposes of looking for more money.................
I believe that the next generation will feel happy because of too dependent....not independent....
This might apply on most of the Asians.......

Asians children are too protected by their parents........
Parents planned everything for them........
Parents even save money for their future expenses.........
Parents buy their children things they want.......
Parents fulfill the children's needs and wants....giving extra often.......

These will make Asians children to misunderstand on the purposes of money......
Once they don have money.....they will suffer........
Then they will feel like money is everything........
By that they will do anything to get money........
This might be the main reason which brings the wrong conceptions of money.........

Asian's parents should learn this from western parents.......
Comfortable and happy life should be provided to the child........
But in the same time........
Do leave them do things and get things alone........
Don every time give them extra....give whats enough........
Set some conditions for the children to get something from you......

Let them learn the process of getting things by themselves.....
Let them feel the difficulties.......
Child grown by this kind of teaching will be more mature than the others for sure....
Because they feel the whole process........
They did step by step........

People will only know how it is when they really involved..........
People will only understand how its work when they did practically involved.....
People will only appreciate when they get it with hard working.........

Going through ups and downs in the life will make a person mature........
nitez....

What is true and what is false......

2008-07-23T20:28:00.005+08:00

Is there really an absolute answer.......

If both you and your best friend are working out hard for a particular thing and theres only one...
If one success the other will disappointed......
If both give up.......there will be a waste.....
If both competing......one might hurt.......
If that is a golden opportunity and might appear once in our life.......

What will been done and who will scarified.......
Which action taken is wrong and which is right......

Izit a must to do so..........
Will u regret after all..........

I really hope theres an absolute answer for such situation...........
I think everyone begging for such answer as well.......
nitez.......

Future......

2008-07-22T21:48:00.005+08:00

Don't know since when.......
Future seems to be very important in my life.......

Everything is depend on it's future.......no future equal to not worthy......
Every step taken need to determine how bright is the future...........
Even every action before taken ............future is taken into consideration..........

You need to choose your job according to its futurity.............
Same goes to your studies........your properties.....even your life partner.......
What so important about future?

What I have heard from people are.......
You will go through your life with less mistakes.....less time consuming........less struggling.......
Yea.....it might be true......but our whole life is under control by all these.........
Don't you feel suffering?........honestly......i don like this at all.......

Future.....are things which haven come but its coming soon into our life.......
Its true we decide our future.......but not by following others future...........
What you have seen on others now might not suitable for you in your future.......

This is a very flexible matter........
You can either follow others footsteps or create your own.......
Many parents might have the wrong concept on future.........
We could notice that plenty of parents out they encouraging their children to learn and do things according to someone's footsteps who given a good impression to themselves.....

Whats in their mind are.......if their children do exactly what a success person did......their children will definitely moving on the right track.........
In my point of view.......not exactly........

These children might be good in the sense of bright future or high demanding if they success......
I stress again......this happen if they are succeed.....
Children who succeed.....are those really born to be in such track or who are really talented to such teaching process.......

What their parents are doing to them are actually what they want and they are gifted to accomplish......How if those children who are not?
Negative effects will burst until it reaches a serious condition........

So what I think is...........parents should discover their children future and not creating a future which they think its suit for their children........
A planned future is not as satisfy as a gifted future.......
Nitez......

How sad....

2008-07-21T21:54:00.008+08:00

Today......
I'm extremely bored.......
Because I have nothing to do......
After waking up from sleep at 11am.....
I opened my computer and go online.....

Sign in my MSN.....
There are 8 contacts online......7 was away and left 1 online......the 'SmarterChild' !!! swt =.=
I think I am the only one who is so free in the morning of Monday which is the 1st working day for most people.....

Okay then...no chatting.....
Never mind......go for youtube then haha......
I think around 7 or 8 video i have watched.......
Suddenly remember that last night me and my friend was watching 'guaitan' (Hong Kong's ghost hunting program).....

So i decided to search that in youtube........after 10 minutes of searching......i manage to get to it...
Every series has separated into either 5 or 6 parts.......kinda annoying cause i need to find other parts manually......

After watched 2 series of guaitan.......come to the 3rd series.........
The guaitan crew was filming in Penang, Malaysia....
This time.....they were going to join the investigation on a well-known Malaysia murder case.....
A 3 years old girl had been murdered and her body had been separated into parts and burned....
The polices manage to collect most of the burned body parts.......but not the head.........

A 3 years old girl had been threaten in such cruel ways......
In some beliefs.....the girl who had been murdered in such ways will be living tough even being a ghost.....

I wander how the murderer could do this to such cute girl......
Her parents and grandma was so sad while knowing the missing girl was killed in such way.....
They try whatever way to know how their loving one being killed........even look for exorcists
They manage to communication with the murdered girl in 'those' ways........

There were some words i cant forget for the rest of my life i think......
The girl spirit telling to her parents and grandma......
She said: I am very cool.....there was so dark.......with the crying and suffering sound....
So sad.......

But because of the law restrictions.......those evidences are unacceptable and consider as not relevant........

Even thought they know who is the murderer....but they can do nothing.......
How sad........
The publics who know this case are willing to give whatever help to this innocent girl.........
But they can do nothing as well......
For certain things.......logical cant really done all the jobs.........
But thats the reality.......So what to do???

Lets pray and wish this girl will reborn as soon as possible and have a better life.....
All the best Ying Ying !!!
I support U!!!
nitez.....

Its beautiful.....

2008-07-20T18:04:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night......
After some drinks with friends.....
Discussed on some matters......
Had a precious moment.....
On the way back home......

While walking.......
My mind surrounded by several kinds of problems.....
Some are short-term....some are long-term.......some are easy......some are complicated......
Even though the sky is dark......the stars are shinning....I still cant have a silent and clear mind.....

While looking at the sky.....
Suddenly......felt a calm and comfortable feeling came to me......
Two questions appeared in my mind........
Why are you so suffer?.....Why are you thinking so much?.....(Just like someone talking to me)
Then I realize.....yea....why am I suffer and thinking so much?.....since i wont get an answer......

That night.......my friends do helped me a lot on my problems......
But.....I think the sky and the stars comforted and woke me up the most.......
Life its beautiful actually......
Haha......thank you!
Appreciate! ^.^

Telling truth.....

2008-07-20T00:32:00.002+08:00

Its hard to take it.......
Its hard to handle......
Its hard to accept......
Its not comfortable to listen.....
Its not easy to express....
Its not easy to tell......

That's truth!

Truth is a very powerful and sensitive word....
Truth can hurt a person deeply......
Truth can change a person extremely.....
Truth can make a person sad.....
Truth can make a person awake from dreams.....
Truth can make a person depress.....
Truth can make a person energetic......

Such powerful word to have.......
I love that!!!
nitez....

How to get the biggest improvement?

2008-07-19T15:30:00.002+08:00

I have been doing the same workout routines for like 3 months.....
I do see some results.....
As in that I feel much easier to lift my dumbbells.....
But my dumbbells weight just maintain there.....
If i increase the weight......
The reps gone down about 30 to 40%.....almost half of it.....
Is that means i cant actually increase the weight now of izit possible...
Is dumbbell workout focus only on my arms and chest?......(i think so coz so obvious haha)
Now I was like imbalance on my upper body compare to my abs and lower body......
Somehow it could give an impression to others that my body size were large......
But its imbalance......
I finding some other ways to work on my abs and lower body.....
Besides doing workout on these parts......
I have chosen to go for badminton and basketball....
Cause its fun and not so boring ......
Doing workout alone is so bored and dull.......
Sometimes is not too tiring to continue but its too boring haha.....
I hope that anyone who read my article could provide me some guidelines to solve my problems..
I appreciate if anyone could give me a help...thanks
^.^

Strange feeling...

2008-07-17T23:27:00.003+08:00

Whats that feeling.........
Enjoying tea and chatting with friends in a mamak where theres a prs mlm there.......
Do chat but don really get into it.......
We are friends and we really care about each other.......
But why i have such weird feeling......
Friends around myself are just slightly different from strangers who passing by and having a shot of eye contact......

Why....why.....why.......
I need an answer.......
I think i have some questions......
But i cant combine those pieces of words into a complete question.....
I really don like this kind of feeling......

Something goes wrong......
I need time to build my questions......
Some changes are coming.......
I'm waiting to face.....
Nitez....

Maintaining, Sustaining and Continuing......

2008-07-16T23:04:00.002+08:00

Maintaining, Sustaining and continuing.......
Looks easy......but its hard when come to apply those into our life.....
Just talk about my daily workout routines.......
3 sets of 22 reps of standing-pulling up dumbbell workout......
3 sets of 15 reps side lifting to center chest dumbbell workout.....
2 sets of 25 reps push ups......

How many times i have the feeling to stop......
How many times i have the feeling of giving up.....
How many times i have the feeling of disappointing.....

But i know this is how a person improve and be able to move forward......
Those workouts might be easy for 1 normal weight person....
But i don think its easy for a 98kg person like me.....
What else i can do other than continue?
No other option!!!.....just go on!!!!
nitez...

Let it be....

2008-07-15T22:51:00.002+08:00

Sometimes......I really wanna give a hand to help......
Sometimes......I really wanna give some wise suggestions......
Sometimes......I really wanna comment on certain things which are going not so right......
Sometimes......I really wanna protect the person from being hurt or insult......
Sometimes......I really wanna pull the person back from stepping deeper into the trap set by themselve.....
Sometimes......I really wanna guide the person to do better......
Sometimes......I really wanna give my time to the person in order to let him or her to feel better.....
Sometimes......I really wanna give them a chance to start all over again......
Sometimes......I really wanna agree with whatever they said......
Sometimes......I really wanna believe with what they said......
Sometimes......I really wanna make them happy......
Sometimes......I really wanna scold the person who keep doing the wrong things since they knew it from the beginning......

But......What I manage to give might not what they want...What I think is right might be incorrect for them...
What I can help might be useless to them...What i think is wrong might be reasonable to them...
What can I do? After trying and trying ......haiz......just let it be......=.=
No matter how......i dont have the rights......
Nitez...

Am I putting efforts......

2008-07-14T21:24:00.005+08:00

From not even 1 push up to 35 push ups......
From 5 sit ups to 100 sit ups.......
From don't know how to start a ball in a badminton play to knowing how to smash.....
From not even touch the rim to knowing 3 points shooting.......
From cant even 1 lap of 50M swimming to 20 laps......
From 5 kg of dumbbell training to 14.4kg ......
From 50lbs machine chest press to 200lbs......
From dunno how to cast a skill of a hero to knowing how to own.......(dota)
From dunno how to aim to knowing how to back stab and strategy killing.....(CS)
From dunno how to start a car to knowing how to drive fast......
From hot temper to being very calm.....
From intolerant to being tolerant......
From thinking straight forward to thinking from different angles and different point of view....
Am i putting efforts? i think i do......not much but at least i do......who knows? who cares? =.=
Nitez...

Don expect more......

2008-07-12T21:52:00.003+08:00

If i am not wrong.....for sure we always heard people asking these questions.....
Why he dint do it like that?....why he dint do as i say so?......why he did not give what i want?....why he don't know what i want?.....
These question occurred because those people are expecting for more.......
How much people wanna give is up to them.........
The more you expect, the more you will be disappointed........
In my point of view.....
Give what you suppose to give....
Give what you can give.........
Give more if you want to......
Don expect what suppose u get...
Don expect what you can get....
Don expect anything more you might get......
Giving out without expecting for return is the right way.......Thats the way man !! haha
Nitez

Nothing Really Suit..........

2008-07-12T01:42:00.003+08:00

Do u ever notice or actually u do notice but u don't seem to feel curious to find out why are some couples are totally not match in your expectation....
You might probably ask.....why do that tall guy will find such short girl to be his girl friend?.....why do that tall girl will have a boy friend who is 10cm shorter than her?.....why do such good looking girl or guy will find a love partner who is a lot more ugly than them?......why do such intelligent girl will have a boyfriend who is just doing car repairing?.....the list goes on.......
Weird right??? There are some reasons why could these happen....
A tall guy wanted to have a short girlfriend because he needs her to alert him about things which he had missed or things which might hurt him.......don't take this as a joke...tall guys really have low awareness of things that are too low from their eye sight......
A short guy is more sensitive and has high awareness of his surroundings.......he will be more sensitive on people feelings....this could attracts tall girls who wanted be to in such caring love.....
A good looking girl or guy will find a love partner who is not good looking is probably because.......the particular person has the inner beauties which attracted them to fall in love and they believe they could depend their living on the person.......inner beauties are referring to...gentle, caring, understanding, independent, believable, high self-esteem and so on....
One of these inner beauties alone doesn't seem to be anything...but if anyone who has the most of these might be a person who u hardly get........but its weird that kinda lot of people who don't seem to be good looking has these inner beauties......this might be the kindness of GOD lolz.....the real reason i will try to get it as soon as possible haha.....
Only in this couple matching matter......we have an early stage of conclusion.........nothing really suit...........things which is same standard doesn't really need to be together........
Nothing really suit......but at least u can change yourself and improve yourself to suit it! haha
Or we can also say it like this......why u wanted to work so hard to suit others .....why don't they trying hard to suit you!!!!!
All depends on how u see things are..........many things are located in Grey area......
Is our responsibility to define them whether these things are in black or white area.....
We change things, not things change us!!! lolz.....nitez guys!

Appreciate.....

2008-07-11T01:25:00.004+08:00

If you have a place to stay, foods to eat, water to drink and clothes to wear.....you are consider as in good living condition then 70% who without it....Learn to appreciate...
what i have seen......teenagers nowadays keep complaining on shortage of pocket money to spend, cant follow up the fashion trend, parents dint spare enough time to be with them, stress given by parents on their studies, always locked at home and cant hang out late........
Are all these consider as suffering and tough for these teenagers?If u were to say yes.....I'm speechless...
Teenagers nowadays are too protected by their parents.......they are like prince and princess at home....All things given by their parents are taken for granted by them.......its all they deserve to have....
Do they ever think about how hard is their parents trying to earn living for them?
Some might says that, those are their responsibilities if they want to have a child........That's totally BULLSHIT for me!!!
YES! parents do have the responsibilities to raise their children...but those responsibilities are to provide you care, foods, drinks, shuttle and wearings for you until you have the capability to get all these by yourself.......those pocket money, time with you, stress given to you and locking you at home are actually additional carings on you!!!
They no need to do that if they don't want to do so!!! Again....please don't take it for granted.....=.=
Always remember that we are far far better than those who don't even have the basic needs in their living.......
Not many things which we really deserve it......alot are given by people who are too kind and generous !!!Appreciate them !!! Say thank!!! sweet dream! nitez...

Responsibilities....

2008-07-10T01:09:00.004+08:00

Everyone is born with certain responsibilities.......
Responsibilities mean things which u must do as in term of morality in certain position......
Examples are like teacher, father, mother, brother, sister, police and live guard.......they all hold different responsibilities.......
Responsibilities is what u must do in order to show you are a responsible person or its just what u think u should do which came from deep in your heart? i still wandering.......
As to me.....is both.....in term of natural behavior and realistic environment.....
I think people like father, mother , brother and teacher is the most suitable person to bring out the meaning of responsibility.......
As a father...he should always put his family in the first place.....career second and money comes at the end.........
In a family, father holds the most responsibilities......he needs to teach his children....he needs to take cares of his family....he needs to fight for his career.....he needs to protect his family from being hurt.......What a DAD!!!! Somehow father is equivalent to superman for me!
After father, is our lovely mom!.....she brought us out to the world.....who else to thanks if not our mom?!.......Mother is the closest person in our childhood , eventhough till the day we die!
In every mother's 'eye'......their children are always children to them.......it means mother never left their worries and responsibilities on their children no matter they are grown or not......
Do anyone other than your mother can take this responsibility? i don think any.....so love them!!!
Brothers are the second man in family after their father......their responsibilities are same as their father.......brother should take care of everything in the family when his parents are not in.........there is 1 more thing which you don't seem important but it seem very important to me.....as the eldest son in the family......A big brother should also share the impacts and the stress of their mother.......this is what i think most of the son have miss out this important responsibility......it because other than father......the eldest son is the most believable person to the mother......never forget this.......
This important responsibility is always in my heart, not just in my mind!
So before i end ......i just wanna stress on 1 thing.......responsibility is something that came truly from your heart calling u to accomplish and when u accomplished...you will feel happy and meaningful, THAT RESPONSIBILITY!! nitez guys!!!

Friends

2008-07-08T23:36:00.003+08:00

Friends are to share happiness, enjoyment, sadness and tough moment with you........
But.....that's the surface u saw......that's normal capabilities or we can say as requirements for a friend....
But whats true friends are.......they notice your weaknesses and search for your strengths....
If they noticed your weaknesses..... they will find ways to tell you, advise you and guide you to improve.....
If they found your strengths....they will praise you and encourage you to improve as much as you could.....
Yes, they share happiness, enjoyment, sadness and tough moment with you but.......they wont just share........
They will identify whatever things you share to them......izit good to share with ???or bad???
This is base on sharing happiness and enjoyment.......many things could make u satisfied, happy and enjoy.....
But not everything u think could make u happy is a good thing to have.....like drugs, alcohol and smoking..
Friends are to remind you what is good and what is bad which providing happiness and enjoyment to you in this moment......
When come to sharing sadness......friends are as a listener and also a adviser to you......
They do listen to your sad story.....while listening they will tell you the reasons which make you sad.....
Its might be reasonable or its actually your problems which resulting such sad moment to you....
Tough moment....Friends share the impacts on your shoulder for you.......they also support you, 'push' you and also making jokes to decrease your stress level.....and not like those who say ' Never mind, we will always by your side'....but they actually miles away from you when you need them....
So, these are what i think a friend should be.......and i will be glade and die with no regret even i have 1 of this friend....nitez

What is self defending?

2008-07-07T21:54:00.003+08:00

How do u define self defend? izit take every advantages and opportunities to yourself? izit u can sacrifice your friends and family members to gain yourself a better life? izit stopping yourself to give out things which is possible for you to others in order to make them happier? but......i don think these is right at all...... will u feel safer after u take everything from others? will u feel happier when u grab every advantages? will u feel that u r the best among others if u have all the opportunities? Do u think that u really that important to yourself? if your answers are yes for the questions above........i think u have to reset your mindset.........self defend is to avoid yourself to get into problem which u r not deserve to have.....self defend is to avoid yourself from being hurt by others but it doesn't mean that by doing this u have to hurt others.....self defend is to fight for your rights by not insulting others.......self defend is to defend things u have but not forcing, stealing or grabbing others things......self defend is to defend things which u r deserve to have and not what u think u deserve to have.....Many people are misunderstanding this theory.......i hope u all will really think about this seriously......cause its affect your life and others life badly...nitez

Hold Fire.....

2008-07-06T23:28:00.002+08:00

Argument occur because of 1 silly action, 1 stupid word spoken or even 1 wrong body contact delivered..........anyhow argument can extend to fight briefly without suitable explanation and adjustment by each individual involved..........
So, once get the wrong information delivered by others which might make u to lose temper....try 'Hold Fire' and think for 3 sec before taking any action........u might somehow interpreted it in the other way around......Lets assume that u have fought back because of a totally wrong interpretation on the information received.....u will find that u have done a biggest mistake and the most stupid thing ever which u could never play back and run again ........how sad if this happen.......so, don't do thing according to ur feeling.....do things according to logical.......not everything in this world could have the same function of a video clip.....play back doesnt exist in real world......always remember this......nitez

Nice day......

2008-07-06T01:18:00.003+08:00

Early in the morning.....i went alone to swim....went alone to sauna and do workout alone......im enjoying doing things alone like today......but i just feel that i might have freedom but i do not have the excitement doing things alone actually....
Today...... is my secondary schoolmate's birthday.....so we plan to go for a dinner at 'small genting' as everyone is calling that.....not bad....good view...nice environment.....and the most important....the feeling of silent and peace are there......we had a good dinner....in between we do chat with each others and we have jokers among us who really did a very good job by breaking the 'ice mountain' haha..... i give a thousand thanks to them because they do really provide us happiness and had made our dinner memorable....thanks!!!!
Come to myself.....kinda moody today.....but i knew this kind of feeling will come once in a while....i have learned to control.......so sry to whom that i have influence they feeling or mood today......but i really glade to have u all as my friends.....without u all.......i could be a lonely pity guy at home doing all stuffs by myself.....
In conclusion......WHAT A DAY MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Investment 2

2008-07-05T00:14:00.002+08:00

Investment in term of love....For some, love is an important investment in their life...why say so??? coz love could provide them comfort when they need....love could provide them support to fight for thier goals......love could provide them confident to face others.....love can also provide them forgiveness of their mistaken.....But love is an important investment...Only that!.....wont go further.......losing love is just like losing an important investment but not whole life........this is what i have noticed in this city......for some.....love is above everything....but not for people in KL....u might find it from what im referring.....KL should be a kinda evil city to have.......my answer was NO!......is REALISTIC!!! I keep learning many different things from different angles from 1 word....which is REALITY....interesting actually =.=

Investment

2008-07-04T00:22:00.004+08:00

What does investment means? izit that u give out something and u will get something back in return? where could we apply this term?...in business? definitely yes! how about in friendship and love? could we? From what i have observed and experienced till now...........somehow it could!!! nowadays.....friends are useful haha!!...they not only provide us entertainment, help and a time for us to release our stress......there is 1 more thing.......they provide them to us as a 'shield' to cover our mistake....on the other hand, we can use our friends as a tool to reach our goals....don't u all agree? its all up to ur perception.....haha investment in the term of love....hmmm...i will continue by tomorrow haha...kinda tired....nitez

Finally.....

2008-07-03T00:59:00.001+08:00

Finally....I decided to have a blog. After been all the way here for 19 yrs....I find myself located at KL ( the most modern city in Malaysia)...jealous? no nid to...coz not worth to be so....Im a 19 yrs old jobless ultra ordinary teenager who enjoying college and home life... relax and fun??? Its true...but it wont last for long....In KL, u will suffer after enjoying the once and only priceless teenage moment.....coz u will start learning 1 subject.....sound easy but it depends on certain individual. I dont know whether u do heard b4 the word reality? Thats what I learning about now........tell u what.......not that easy =.=
Thats what i have in my mind b4 i go to bed to recharge my remainning spirit to fight for tomorrow...
Nitez.....