Some feelings

You will be crazy and moody once things are out of order...so do I

I have managed time for college and gym

But...once something came out of a sudden might delay or force me to cancel my gym

That's sucks...

I can't eat every 2 to 3 hours because of my college's timetable

Felt really frustrated when things can't go as i wish...and that's not something big, it's just eating and rest...

To be honest...Me myself have to take responsibilities on these...There are plenty of space to improve

Things could be more organised if I could overcome those sudden bad emotions occur somewhere between my day...

I really get disappointed when I didn't did well in the gym...

I felt guilty and moody after getting out of the gym and everything after that will become so annoying and meaningless to me...I have to control this =(

Be still I am happy because people around see changes on me and they praised me

This gave me confident and energy to move on and willing for more and more changes

Thanks to people who did pay attention on my progress....appreciate you all deep from my heart =)

I do feel lonely sometimes....I need someone to understand and share my everything

I need someone to listen to me, anything, just anything I want to tell

Maybe a girl friend? haha...that's might be another new knowledge and challenge =)

No matter how, life still go on~~~

Let's move forward and utilize our life span to the max

That's what human are born to be!!!

^_^

First day back to college

It had been 3 months of holidays

Finally at 8:15a.m. in the morning I come back to college

Which the weather seems so calm and peace

Entered the main entrance

Go straight to the washroom as what I usually do when I am arrived at my destination

Check out myself at the mirror

Looking at myself in the mirror

......

I'm back with different physique

I'm now 90kg compare to 100kg previous

I'm loaded with much more mass compare to previous

I look better as in healthier and maybe a bit more confident compare to previous

My formal wear fits me better compare to previous as well

Besides looking at the mirror

Changes which can be see without using a mirror are

I'm became more talkative

I have better EQ

I have greater ability to handle awkward person and arrogant person

I am much more motivated in bodybuilding compare to previous

I'm STRONGER!!! =)

A lot stronger than before

.....

Not much things happen in the holidays

Just sports, hanging out and having tea with friends, did some research about bodybuilding and health

.......

And the best part is

Having greater improved and closer relationship with some current and seldom meet friends

Friendship is always a powerful support and motivation to me in doing everything besides family and love

I'm prepared for degree level 2

I have figured out ways to overcome my previous bad study attitudes

I feeling fresh and energetic now and ready to load as much knowledge as I could and I have promised myself to do my best in this whole degree level 2 and keep going till the moment I'm graduate

.......

I hope all these will go smooth and

I believe it will!!!

All the best to myself and to people I love and care

~~~

Week 33

Recovery week

Wrist injured

Finger injured

Skin injured

legs injured

back injured

Too tough to continue going to gym anymore this moment of time

After eight months

Finally got a week of time to rest and recover although i did went to gym this tuesday which the day i injured my back....

Before this...I could have plenty chances to take a week rest or more if I wan to

It's just because I do not want to break the consistency

I know myself well...once I break....it will be very hard to get back that consistency

Now...I'm done....

My body is badly exhausted and injured which give me no chance to go gym even if I force myself because I can't lift heavy and properly with good form....It causes pain...

After months and months of working out

In the morning at the day after my back injured

Looking at myself in the mirror...

I do see changes and I do feel changes

People around do see changes and this makes me happy and makes me realise that I've done what promised the day I sign up for joining California Fitness...

Put bodybuilding as a daily basis....

When people studying...I'm in the gym fighting

When people working..I'm in the gym fighting

When people shopping...I'm in the gym fighting

When people relaxing at home...I'm in the gym fighting

When people eat whatever they love...I'm eating foods with less taste and plain

When people having snack...I'm having oatmeal or fruits

When people drinking carbonate drinks...I'm drinking plain water, fruit juice or milk

When people busy playing overnight...I'm finding ways to sleep earlier...

That's what makes the different between bodybuilders and normal people

We have larger body size

We look maybe abit more rough

We might always hungry like monsters

We always sleep like pig

We working out like mad dog

Although it seems so different from normal people

But we are just chasing our dream in abit different way

We see result by looking at our body and feel our body

When a goal is set

That's whole life chasing!

WEEK 30

Bench press 180lbs (whole bar)

Dumbbells flat bench press 180lbs (both hands)

Incline dumbbells press 150lbs (both hands)

Decline dumbbells press 120lbs (both hands)

Dumbell chest flyes 70lbs (both hands)

Dumbbells row 90lbs (one hand)

Pulley row machines 77kg

Shoulder flyes 40lbs (both hands)

Shoulder dumbbells press 120lbs (both hands)

Biceps concentration curl 40lbs (one hand)
Biceps peacher curl 50lbs (both hands)

Biceps seated curl 75lbs (both hands)

21's barbell curl 50lbs (whole bar)

Squat 140lbs

Legs press 259lbs

Legs squat press 630lbs

Sit up 50times

Body weight 202lbs

Currently...wrist injury is the most stubborn injury which takes so long to recover
Even now....still feel the pain
Sleeping early and good is still a big problem to me
Sleeping too early will makes me wake up in the middle of the night which end up even worse sleeping condition...
The high body heat after workout is still there lasting 2 days after every workout
Base on my workout schedule....My body heat problem will last on and on
LOL
I'm a FIRE GOLEM~~
>.<

Done degree level 1...

Finally I have done my degree year 1 with kinda blur case style
I've been going and back from college without gaining much understanding and knowledge from the modules I've took.

Rushing the assignments given on the last few days and even completed 2 assignments at the last 10 minutes of submission... speechless
Hanging out till late night frequently...
Have an unhealthy eating habits...eating at night...not eating clean....
Addicted to DOTA in the starting of the year......
Spend too much money which is somehow not necessarily....

Things that still make me happy with it are...
I do enjoy alot....
I've freedom much more than a teenager should have
I got what I want and I can have what I want

Left one and the only 1 thing that makes me proud of...
My consistency towards bodybuilding
I never miss a workout with reason that I do not feel like going...
I've gained obvious improvement and some self-confident
I've got a motivated gym partner by my side
I've learnt alot about bodybuilding, nutrition, motivation and health....

In conclusion
In this whole degree level 1...
I'm totally lost focus in my study
I did not manage my time wisely
I'm spoiling my body with my bad eating habit and sleeping habit

I'm alot stronger than previous me before I've started to being serious in bodybuilding
I've understand that friends that always hang around does not really understand each other
I do not feel that friendship does improved alot....but it is fun hanging out and enjoy
I still stick with my belief...
You will never know a person absolutely until when you both faced a situation where life and death matters...

BYE DEGREE YEAR 1 !