What I love is not what u want and expected

Sorry...
I know you don't like me doing things that don't have futurity
But...that's what I only love and have interest on...
I know it does not seem to be benefiting me in the future and maybe now as well
I know that clearly...

Doing things that I do not have interest on is the worst thing happening to me
I do not have the mood and do not have the heart to put in efforts
Its making me confused and frustrated...
Pointless...
No direction...
Regret...
Loses my goal...

Sorry...
Study hard to get a certificate as a pass to get a good job in the future is not the way I want
Everyone wants to be special, include me...
Following someone Else's footsteps is not my style and I hate it
If that's call stubbornness and not understanding...
Then I have to admit...I am...

All time listening to such sentence, " Life is only once, why don't you do your best and get the best things in your life?"
Ya I do agree with this...
But I can tell you, getting the best things ever are never never could compete with getting things you love and dream!
If the best thing is not what you want, thing you love is the one you dying to get!

I always tell myself
Money is nothing...
Materials is nothing...
Pain is also not a thing to scare of...
Suffer is just a bit tough in life...
Looking down by others is just a small barrier in life...
But your DREAM!
YOUR DREAM IS EVERYTHING!

So...Sorry...
I will keep on with what I'm doing now
By doing this, I could feel that I am chasing towards my dream step by step...
I could find my direction...
I am not confuse....
I have no regret...
I see my goal crystal clear!

THAT'S WHAT I WANT AND HOW I ENJOY!